Hey, babe, it’s Kristin Carideo.
I was so saddened by reading this. I know how bad things can be with your parents, so I pass down advice to you (take it however you may, but I mean it in love).
1) You are not required to make your parents happy. You are only required to make yourself happy. You fulfill your obligations to them in loving them. Past that, you can’t do anything more than what’s best for yourself, and if you being happy doesn’t make them happy, then it’s their problem not yours.
2) You want to be an English major. I can see that. Do it.
3) Taking dance, etc., won’t help you get your life together unless you are ready to get your life together. You already know how to do that. Taking ballet won’t teach you anything you don’t already know. You just have to make the decision to get your life together and then follow through. If you’re not ready to do that, then you’re not ready.
4) Do at least one thing good for yourself this week without feeling guilty about it.